Sad and a little scared

First, it was Gigi that left us. I stood at the front door, holding my baby and crying as I watched her drive away. She had stayed for two weeks, doing all of our cooking and cleaning, plus working her grandmother magic on Ruby when we needed a break. The two weeks with Gigi went so quickly and I was scared about David and I doing it all on our own. I knew that we could though and found comfort in the fact that David would be home with me for two more weeks.

Today, David left us to return to work. I didn't stand at the door and cry this time because I was still in bed, trying to sleep a few hours after a rough night with Rubina. Now that I'm awake, however, I'm sad and a little scared. David has been doing the cooking and cleaning since Gigi left. He ran all the errands and changed more than his fair share of diapers. He brought me tea and snacks while I was nursing and stuck on the sofa. I don't know how I'm going to get along without him for eight hours every day.

Ruby must know that her momma needs to have a good day, because she has been an angel all morning. I know I'll quickly adapt to daytime on my own, but I am still so sad that David had to return to the real world. The house seems very quiet and empty without Daddy here.

Thank you, David, for a wonderful first month with Ruby. I am so glad that we had you home for an entire month. I loved every minute of it.